o mie de chipuri?

they are all wrong

I have changed.

it's so hard for them to see

because of how they see me:

like they all have, always:

just the way they want to.

There once was a time I was sure of the bond,

When my hands and my tongue and my thoughts were enough
We are the same

but

our lives move along.

tare mi-as dori

sa-mi pot permite

sa spun

ca pana si tu

imi simti lipsa.

all the people who say the're my friends,

they must have something like the Stockholm Syndrome.

and time

is on your side.

but you don't need it. not.anymore

I am happy that you are now happy, I really am.

I just hope that I will be too.

someday.

Coldplay - Amsterdam

can't shoot me straight

Obsessing over: hot chocolate, black boots, finding the perfect ankle boots, caps, hats and beanies, winter scarves[ cowls especially!], homemade American pancakes, becoming a [good] cook, inspiration boards and Christmas lights, my newly-postponed final midterm, the fact that the weather looks like spring when it should be snowing!


Working on: getting rid of my inertia, cleaning around, homework,


Thinking about: giving this year, snow!, my last exam, my tons of homework, new goals, dreams, God, people I care about, life.


Anticipating: snow!, hot chocolate, great winter holidays, the winter break, snow, spending the holidays with people I very much care about, a new year, giving gifts and new projects.


Listening to: Matt Kearney


Drinking: yoghurt[with cereals]


Wishing: to study properly, for growth in all of my endeavors, to make more meals, to give more, to help more., to know why some things have happened, or why is it that they have happened they way they did.

Mat Kearney - Runaway Car

today

still today.

in my head,

on my heart.

fact #86: Although I wish to do oh so many things at a time, I can't. But I'm still part of them in my mind.

10.000 reasons for my heart to find.

the papercuts, the cheating lovers,

the coffee's never strong enough,

I know you think it's

more

than just

Sunt curioasa cat o sa tina fix-ul asta.
Pana la Craciun, zic eu.
Dupa Anul Nou cel mult.

it's in the ABC of growing up

and it doesn't mean we have to grow old together.

I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this.

now's a bad a time as any.

but sometimes

it hurts instead.

I.remembered.

sometimes going back feels natural, like I'm where I belong. And my heart trembles when I have to go back to the real world.

Because every once in a while, I hold on to a thought.

Adele - Someone Like You

You're

not.alone.

I am selfish and impulsive, and dominated by my sin nature. I am immature and childish, and so many other things. I don't know, truth be told, how or what I feel now, if I'm ok or not, if I'm sad or not, or mixture of both.

I just want a bit of light, so that I can follow my thoughts, trace them back and see what it is that's actually bothering me. It has to be something, it always is. I am never fully happy, am I? Or is it the very absence of that thing would bother me?

[excerpt from j.e.]

it.gets.better.

The Gift Of A Friend

execution

in my head.

[update: nu ma mai simt asa de radicala ca acum 12 ore]

si nu o sa mai spun ca in capul meu ai fost executat, mon ami.

asta ar fi o greseala. ce s-a intamplat numai executie n-a fost. mai degraba

ceva inexplicabil in care poate ca rolurile s-au inversat.

this time last year,

I had a headache, a full day, a Halloween party at my place, choir practice, a new responsability, an old battle renewed, a newly discovered passion for leaves and a wonderful new friend.

depressed - I was

struggling - I was

happiness - I was trying to feel

this year,

I have a toothache, half-full or half-empty days, no Halloween parties, no choir practice, bill[s] to pay, new battles, a smile whenever I see a that kind of leaf, and I am missing the girl I met this time last year.

worried - I am

wondering - I am

happiness - I can sometimes feel.

I picked up a leaf today for you, B.; I had no idea what day it was, but I was sure you would like it. I know I did. When I got home I realized that, and it made me smile because, even if you and I are separated by so many miles now, we can still feel.together.

*here's to being one-of-a-kind together. here's to wearing one's inside on the outside.

I'm looking for a place to go

where everything's an embrace and everybody wants to know.

In literature, there are thousands of endings. Some happy, some sad. Some end with a twist.

And then there's the ending you saw coming a mile away, and yet somehow it takes you by surprise.

Chase and Status feat White Lies - Embrace

all I want to say to you

is

unspeakable.

Don't enable me.

Just don't.

No one will like what happens after.

Five O'Clock Heroes feat Agyness Deyn - Who

ASTA

asta

asta

nu mi se va intampla mie.

nu. nu din nou.

Buddy - 11/22

I went down to the crossroads

fell upon my knees

Being here only made me realize how similar I am to you,

when compared to others.

I never knew.

All along, not that strong without these open arms.

in a way, she was right keeping me aside.

Doamne, apara-ma de mine insami.

Si mai mult decat atat, apara-i pe cei din jur.

The Paper Kites - Bloom

my way or the highway.

baiete, asta e.

nothing,

nothing's gonna change my world.

Beatles - Across The Universe

Doi oameni divorțează și unul rămâne singur.

Crede-mă, după 4 ani de zile astfel e normal să nu te mai cunosc.

și chiar de n-au fost patru, și ai dreptate, nepăsarea cu care întrebi mă face să-mi pară rău că n-am spus 10; ar fi fost același lucru pentru amândoi. Patru a fost răspunsul subconștientului meu, poate, pentru că faci parte dintr-o vreme atât de îndepărtată... când îți păsa măcar un pic poate și când și mie îmi păsa de tine. E trist când doi foști prieteni se întâlnesc și constată că nu sunt decât două umbre palide a ceea ce obișnuiau să fie împreună cândva.

long overdue

desi au trecut doar 3 zile

You may not know it

But I think you can feel it too

You and me

We moved

Each other

Them.

You and I started something

Like a movement

I moved him and

him and I moved you and

now I am sure that we moved him

and the others.

I hope you have a good time, 'cuz I'll definitely be having mine.

stick around, some real feelings might surface.

oh no, I don't get to have me again.

da, o sa incetez sa mai fiu apatica in momentul cand tu o sa incetezi sa te comporti ca un idiot, cand o sa recunosti deschis ce a fost.

Da, e si vina mea ce se intampla acum, dar e vina ta ca acum e asa.

da, o sa incetez sa mai fiu apatica atunci cand nu o sa te mai dispretuiesc.

Blame game? Sunt sigura ca deja se intampla si ca altfel nu ai fi fost acolo atunci.

Atata timp cat te simti vinovat ma simt bine. Asa si trebuie.

stick around, some real feelings might surface

Blame game?

I'm game if you are.

and if you are, I hope you have a good time,

'cos I'll definitely be having mine.

Life is full of peaches, limes, lemons and pears. Tonight was a sour, sour lemon and was a night that I hope to never, ever repeat.

when summer lasts longer than we do

1 septembrie. E mâine.

și data asta nu-mi mai inspiră teamă sau ură ca în alți ani, pentru că vara mea poate că s-a terminat, dar vacanța mea, pe care am crezut-o atât de scurtă, întârziată și grăbită, a fost de fapt cea mai frumoasă și mai lungă vacanță de care am avut parte. 1 septembrie nu mai e inamicul meu. Acum e o altă dată în calendar, peste care se va pune praful, și care nu mai înseamnă nimic, pentru că nu-mi mai e teamă de ea. Acum e doar o prelungire a verii, și chiar daca n-ar fi așa pentru toți, e pentru mine. și înainte de 1 septembrie toate lucrurile s-au clarificat. Ies dintr-o altă etapă a vieții așa cum am ieșit din cea de dinainte. Intru într-o nouă etapă a vieții așa cum am intrat în cea de dinainte. Totul e o prelungire a ceea ce a fost mai devreme, așa cum 1 septembrie e doar data care urmează după 30 august, nimic mai mult. Contează doar ce o lași să însemne, așa cum un nou început e diferit de ce fost mai înainte doar dacă tu crezi că e un nou început.

si chiar dacă nu găsesc cuvintele potrivite pentru a exprima tot ce e în mintea și în sufletul meu acum sau mai târziu, prefer să nu am cuvintele decât să nu am momentele și persoanele.

Brooke Fraser - Something in the water

Pause life. For protest

a locked room

in

a tall tower

I am

home,

a land that i've never seen
I am changing:

less and less asleep
made of different stuff

than

when i began
and i have sensed it

all along
fast approaching

is the day.

Brooke Fraser - Shadowfeet

infinit de sincer

iti spun

suntem niste printi cand visam

si niste cersetori cand gandim.

Kings Of Leon - Pyro