Phoebe: But what about Ross? What about your moment? Don’t you want to talk to Ross about it?
Rachel: No, no, ‘cos I know exactly how the conversation is going to go. “Hey Ross”, “You know, I think that we had a moment before” [As Ross] “Yeah, um, me too” [As herself] “Well, but I’m not sure I really wanna do anything about it!” [As Ross] “Yeah, um, me, um, neither.” [As herself] “Ross, should we just continue to live together and not really tell each other how we’re really feeling?” [As Ross] “Yeah, that works for me, um, um.”
Phoebe: Yeah, I see what you mean. By the way, nice Ross imitation. But your Rachel was not whiny enough.
(...)
Rachel: The point is: maybe I should stop waiting around, waiting for moments with Ross. I should just move on with my life.


Every once in a while, you stumble across a piece of good advice in the most unexpected of all places. Like Friends.

And I was so dumbstruck when I got it. Even if I think I have a moment every once in a while with someone [leaving aside how only I might perceive it as a moment], is that enough? At some point it won't cut it anymore. Yeah we can have moments, we can have moments every once a week, twice a week, but as long as we don't get past them and to the next step, whatever that may be, then maybe I should stop whatever and move on with my life just like Rachel says.

And the last time that we spoke,
we seemed much older, colder
and the last time we made eyes
we knew it was over, thank God it's over.


Ik weet dat het zo vreemd is dat ik me met jij zo koud gedrag, maar ik moest dat proberen. Ik moest't proberen om te zien of er een verandering in onze verhouding zal zijn. En hoewel ik zo verbaasd was toen jij ook koud met me was, kan ik ook niet zeggen dat het zo slecht was.

Helaas, misschien beginnen we ons eindelijk zoals volwassenen te gedragen.

Kunnen jij en ik een nieuwe verhouding nu hebben? Kunnen we opnieuw beginnen? Ik ben niet zo optimistisch.

older.colder

Last summer[and to some extent year], I played the fun-naive-trusts-everyone-and-they-can-do-no-harm girl, a happy-go-lucky character, smiling half the time, and being disappointed by how what I thought of people doesn't fit who they are and what they do, to her, or the others the other half.

This summer[maybe to some extent year as well], it seems I'm playing the better-dressed-independent- out-of-your-league-a-bit-snobish-perhaps-still-laughing-but-a-bit-more-reserved girl. Summer twisted my plans, which is too strong a word for expectations, but maybe it was for the better.

At least my feelings don't paralyze me as much as they did up until now.
And I am handling a lot of things better. Or maybe not truly better, but differently, and that means I don't have to stay until the last minute of everything to see how it ends, and maybe I am learning not to be so attached to some people, or moments, and so many others.


Seabird -  Rocks Into Rivers
   
 Asculta  mai multe  audio   rock

the stubborn inheritance

"I’ve been told that once you’ve been stabbed, it is better to leave the blade inside the body. Removing the dagger will only open the wound further. Forgiveness will bleed you thin if you ignore it. The skin could close around the metal, this is a part of you now. This is all you will find when my body crumbles, this vengeful child, this shiny rod, a thirteen-year-old boy crawling from the ashes."

I’ve been told to forgive the stubborn inheritance.

ticket for the long way round

I wish someone would choose me
over the rest
for once.