Together we are celebrating 6 months since we officially went out and got together. I'm super grateful for this guy next to me sleeping
The one who changes the song everytime Ed sheeran comes on because he knows I don't like him.
The one who changes pillows with me and takes the hard one even if before he met me he only slept on the soft one.
The one who wakes up early to cook for us because I need to get to work earlier than he does.
He'll put together chairs at ungodly hours even if that means losing his parking space.
The one who holds my hand everywhere, in public and private.
He'll ask me to tell him what's wrong and what I want him to do.
7 months. 23 Dec
We don't post anything about each other on social media and that's cool.
I'm glued to my phone a lot and he isn't. At all. I was concerned about it at first because he didn't pay that much attention to me online but he's the să me way with everyone. He's sleeping in the living room right now because he sweat a lot and his phone is here in the bedroom. So is his iPad. I can learn from him.
24 Dec.
Our relationship is entirely our own. We decide when and whether it's serious or not. We decide what that means to us and what we want to do, now or next. Only we get to decide if it is right for us or not.
One piece of news, be it good or bad or neither or both, is that we're both pretty new at this. Surely, I had a serious relationship before, but it was headed straight for Marriageville at full speed and while I wanted to get married to that guy at that point and my feelings for him were strong, it did not mean I wanted to get married before I got to know him better.
The other piece of news, be it good or bad or neither or both, is that we can both learn and decide what's next together.
Sometimes I get anxious about the future, whether I am doing anything with my life, whether I am doing what brings me more joy and less stress and I am afraid that I will lose the good things I have, or that I never had them in the first place.
I am trying not to worry about the future too much, and if I do as I can't barricade myself entirely, I try not to burden you with them
14 Apr
City of stars are you shining just for me?
10 1/2 months flew by. We've been self-isolating together for a month now (this is our fifth week). We have limited contact with other people - as one does when social distancing - but we've been doing okay. I've had little need for more alone time. I think we're enjoying the living together trial more than expected. We've only butt heads a couple of times to my great surprise.
I am curious to get to know this guy even more.
I've written the least about him than any of the other guys I've been with. We've navigated our fair share of challenges and I know moving forward we'll have a number of them staring at us as well. But he's patient and understanding
G has the nicest smile and the cutest squinting glance when he smiles or laughs. His eyes becomes two lines just like those of an anime character, and you can see his dimples. He was very shy on our first date, so I didn't make much of it, but there was that one smile that slipped that made my heart smile in return
August 3, 00:05 am
Oh they told me nothing new but I love to read the words you used.
10 august.
Ne vedem la nivelul următor.
The hustle.
It's okay if things take time. If we don't move into a spacious house with a garden, trees and a patio before age 30. If we don't
Everyone is on their own journey. They're reaching their milestones in their own time. They have a set of perks, we're dealt different cards and we use them differently.
I don't have it bad. I never did. I went on vacations I bought stuff I liked. It's not been bad and I dare hope it won't get bad. Money should be a vehicle that helps us get what we want, not be our ultimately goal.
22 august
Să cânte trompetele ta daa
Alături de G cred sincer că vom ajunge sa avem viața pe care ne-o dorim. Pe care mi-o doresc.
I'll get to have a house and a yard and have someone by my side who doesn't feel threatened by me, who doesn't think I am *that* amazing (still don't know if that's good or not). I'll get to have a dog or cat or both, and someone patient and loyal.
We'll have our trips and vacations if I want to, he'll help out around the house, and if I ever get brave enough to take the plunge and move abroad I'll convince him and he'll move with me.
I have all these things, even right now. I don't have to wait for the future. I have the important things right now in the present. I have the loving boyfriend, the great relationship, I don't have to worry about money.
22 Feb 2021. 1y9m flew by. I don't write about this. I wonder if it's because he does not give me reasons to dissect his behavior and overthink it or because most of the romance is gone. I don't need to guess what he's up to and what he means by saying or doing this or that, I can straight up ask him.
Maybe love took a couple detours for me to make sure I understand I have it good with him once we struck that point of balance. He says he's happy, sometimes I wonder if he truly is, maybe because I can't conceive someone being happy with me in the long run while spending so much time together. I know I bring sunshine to people in smaller doses but what about all day every day?
March 2021.
