Life is full of peaches, limes, lemons and pears. Tonight was a sour, sour lemon and was a night that I hope to never, ever repeat.

when summer lasts longer than we do

1 septembrie. E mâine.

și data asta nu-mi mai inspiră teamă sau ură ca în alți ani, pentru că vara mea poate că s-a terminat, dar vacanța mea, pe care am crezut-o atât de scurtă, întârziată și grăbită, a fost de fapt cea mai frumoasă și mai lungă vacanță de care am avut parte. 1 septembrie nu mai e inamicul meu. Acum e o altă dată în calendar, peste care se va pune praful, și care nu mai înseamnă nimic, pentru că nu-mi mai e teamă de ea. Acum e doar o prelungire a verii, și chiar daca n-ar fi așa pentru toți, e pentru mine. și înainte de 1 septembrie toate lucrurile s-au clarificat. Ies dintr-o altă etapă a vieții așa cum am ieșit din cea de dinainte. Intru într-o nouă etapă a vieții așa cum am intrat în cea de dinainte. Totul e o prelungire a ceea ce a fost mai devreme, așa cum 1 septembrie e doar data care urmează după 30 august, nimic mai mult. Contează doar ce o lași să însemne, așa cum un nou început e diferit de ce fost mai înainte doar dacă tu crezi că e un nou început.

si chiar dacă nu găsesc cuvintele potrivite pentru a exprima tot ce e în mintea și în sufletul meu acum sau mai târziu, prefer să nu am cuvintele decât să nu am momentele și persoanele.

Brooke Fraser - Something in the water

Pause life. For protest

a locked room

in

a tall tower

I am

home,

a land that i've never seen
I am changing:

less and less asleep
made of different stuff

than

when i began
and i have sensed it

all along
fast approaching

is the day.

Brooke Fraser - Shadowfeet

infinit de sincer

iti spun

suntem niste printi cand visam

si niste cersetori cand gandim.

Kings Of Leon - Pyro

chestia asta devine obositoare si pentru mine, si pentru tine.

tell yourself that it's right?

we both have to face the facts.

clearly, sometimes people are going to like me better than you, and ask me to do stuff.

but other times, people are going to like you better than me, and you'll get to do some stuff.

and I'm not questioning your judgement right now, no, I already did this and I figured it's not worth it: every time I do that, either I or the others get to suffer.

and I would've done the same thing you did, I know. But it still hurts, and after beating myself up and down and all around this week regarding this tension which I still don't know where originates and why it exists, and how it got there, I have ran out of every earthly, realistic explanations. There's still one, and I know you'd be capable to make that the reason for everything you've put yourself and me through these past days, but I cling to the hope that it will not be this which has enabled you to shift like this, but something else.

Point is, I hope you come back, and everything will be like before.

I am sorry for what happened, I am, but I had no clue, even if you might find that hard to believe. I was just doing what I had been asked to do, enjoying it. And you have no idea what it meant for me to hear you say what you said. But if it helps you get the pain you need to carry on, then fine.

[And I really think i was at least a little better than you, and even you and your 'help' when it came to that. It may not be a fair comparison, and I am definitely biased, but I strongly felt that I did a better job than you two. And if it hadn't been for your words piercing my heart, you would've been even more upset than now, replacing what you did with what I did, and you realizing I was better. Indeed, you said it right, but I'm not taking over what you like so much although you want to make it look like a burden. No, I'm not that cruel, because I know what it means. And this time I'm not even telling you how wrong you are; because if this is what it takes to enable you and make you go on, then it's on me. I can't live without telling the truth, speaking my mind, and insulting you, and you can't live without me understanding you, coming back to brag and me bringing you back to the ground.

And neither one can live without ending up doing stuff together. You and I need one another to do the things that make us who we are, we need each other to accidentally be the fork in the road, to be at our crossroads, and cross each other's paths and influence each other.

And even if neither one doesn't act like it's a big thing, you and I both know exactly what this means for us.]